stage fright? well well well. dont talk to me. of course, I am.

this semester I have 2 biggest presentations. no jokes. thinking back, fuhh. i survived. without failure (forgetting few sentences, but, still, OKAY).

the night before the presentation day, believe me, i’m the most confident girl ever, knowing my script, i knew what i’ll talk about, i’m ready. in addition, calling my mom some more, for restu. 

but, on the day itself, when my team take the stage, mannnn… heart attack? i think my heart doesn’t knew how to beat properly at that time. but, my tips, i always have this mantra “just one go, just one go, do your best, this day will passed.” and that’s it.

but, before that, you know what the hardest thing? when i have the worst team members  ever. *cries* . i can’t do nothing about this tho. it’s the challenges kan, itsokay, still survived. whenever you are in this situation, just do your part, the best as you could, dont rely on others, yes its teamwork but sometimes people like this,.. emm.. face it ja la. 

but in the end, most important thing, is what i gain from it, confident. and i still have stage fright, but, i know how to handle it now.

*drop mic*


new pages..

hello readers!

there are few reasons why i didn’t write anything for the past few weeks (months? lol)

first and foremost, I HAVE NO IDEA / ANYTHING TO SHARE. seriously. if u know me that much, you will figure it out, that i will update something related with my “love life”. sorry, but not this time. or another few years.. maybe. cause i don’t want to share anything that related with it. its kinda boring. kan?

but the problem is, my life is not that interesting enough to share about other thing. i don’t travel, nor read any novels.

my life right now, rolling with assignment and assignment, and whenever i went back to my hometown, my holiday journey stop there. nothing much.

therefore, i need your help, on how to improve my blog, what do you want to hear from me?

whenever they say it is easy .. 

I live up with big expectations from my family. Since my brother and I are the first MY’s grandchildren, the pressure is on us. Score well, straight A’s, science class.. but, i think the pressure is more on me, cause I have to compete with my brother, he knew how to read first, he knew how to read the jawi first, the quran, everything, and our one year gap adding more impact on me. It’s sucks. The list goes on,,, sports and academic, my brother leads everything.

fast forward, now my brother is following my mom’s footsteps.. but me, taking accounting & finance course here. Like hello. Hi. 

My uncles and aunties think that accounting is easy. No it isn’t. Seriously, it’s not. No. I still don’t get it where the “easy” word comes from.. no matter what courses that you take, there’s no easy, there are hardwork & determination. 

Recently, there’s a girl, my junior, mengadu about how hard accouting is, and she cannot cooperate with her tutorial lecturer. At that state, I can’t give any tips to her, cause I was in her place too, the only thing that I do, is studying. There’s no shortcut… if you’re hoping for a miracle, miracle does come with a hardwork. 

Never give up… #notetomyself

1st year 2nd semester


to be honest, I saw the frequent visit of my blog visitors everyday, lately. THANK YOU so much for visiting my blog whenever you have time to do so and SORRY for not updating anything for the past few days… as you can see from the title of this blog, I’ve been busy, focusing and preparing myself for the new semester and spending my time at it fullest at home and now, I miss my home more than I can imagine (blame the 3 months holiday *sad face*).

it’s been three days after i flew from home, unpacking & buying groceries. Seriously I have no idea that i have sooooo manyyy stufff to unpack. it’s leceh. Due to influence of Harry Potter series on HBO back home, how I wish I’m a wizard and I can swing my wand to arrange all my stuff to the wardrobe.


next .. TADAAAA!!! I’m so grateful for this, my housemate went to Osaka, Japan during the summer break and she knew how much I love green tea and she bought this for me. Can you see how much she loves me. LOL. perasan japp. 


next, my notebook for the new semester. I could cry watching cute stuff and I have no doubt grabbing these books at Kaison few months ago, and I’ve been waiting for so long to use these for my classes to add a little cuteness during my stressful unilife. hee. okay, over.


lastly, playlist. love. Suddenly I’m a fan of Ryan Mccartan, no doubt, he’s handsome *wink.


p/s : sorry for this lame update. i’ll write more after this. surely. Actually I lapar while writing this post, that’s why i came out lame as lame as my tummy. HEHE

student pass, passed!


yeah! got my student pass few days ago. now, no more worries a.k.a have to sent my flight eternally receipt every time i want to fly home. hmm.. i’m excited to be back and enjoying all the foods back at home, but i still have my final exam in 2 weeks time. doakan!

seriously I miss home. i only cooked pasta pasta and pasta for the past few days…or week.. lol. but i think i’m getting good at it, i should open a restaurant anytime soon. pasta home delivery, anyone? just kidding.

i want to cooked variaty of food, but, my house here doesn’t have an oven. i’m craving for lasagna. now i don’t know/i forgot how to cooked lasagna anymore. quiet disappointed with it. hmm.